Tonight I ironed a shirt. To those who know me that is a big statement. I have always worn T-shirts and jeans and neither need ironed. But tonight I ironed two outfits. I stood up stairs and looked awkwardly at my iron and ironing board trying to figure out when they were brought into my house. I don't iron what the hell are they doing here? So there I am staring at my blouses and trying to figure out what happens next. I put iron to shirt and begin moving it back and forth. The only thing I accomplished was to wet my shirt to the point of sopping. I am hoping it will dry straight. My father irons every Sunday night and I have never seen him wring out his shirts.
So why am I toiling over blouses and skirts? Because I want Rose to be proud of me. I want to walk into her school and feel like we belong. I want her to look back at her first day of school and not shrink in horror. Of course she may do that anyhow, but one can hope! As I finish my work I began thinking of my parents and wondering did they iron their clothes the night before I began school? Did they feel just slightly ill at the thought of me going off to start a new chapter in my life? Did they worry about the shirts they picked and the lunch they packed? I worry about these things and that is why I am now hand washing a bra just so I won't look well, saggy. It's why when I was pregnant with her I didn't smoke and I didn't drink. I ate what I was supposed to and I always remembered to take my vitamins. I can't even remember my name anymore.
I love her more than life itself and I want her to feel confident and happy. I want her to love going to school. Even though I know somedays she won't want to go. I want to walk into Annesley and feel like we belong there! So I let my clothes and bra dry and tomorrow I will dress as I have never before and I will walk into kindergarten for the first/second time and I will feel confident (I hope)! We all know Rose is going to be great, I even ironed her dress too. Now we will have to see if Liam dresses appropriately.