Thursday, September 28, 2006
I declare myself crazy in the head! I have been feeling it coming for weeks. I have slowly become insane. This baby has turned me lunie! Every day around 2:30 I become a nutty women. My brain turns to mush and I feel like crying. I become exhausted and I want to die! As the night goes on all I want to do is sleep but then I can't come 10pm. So I sit and I wait for the nausea to pass and for me to become sleepy. I can't read and I can't sew so I sit and wait. I think awful thoughts like "I can't do this" and "I'm not cut for this" or "how can I be a mommy for two when I feel like a failure with one." Has anyone else ever felt this way because right now I want to crawl under my bed and go to sleep and never wake up.