I am pretty sure the lack of sleep is getting to me. I feel helpless and less and less like a mother. I'm suppose to know what to do. I'm suppose to make things all better. I can't help Lily. I don't understand what is going on with her. I am lost and alone. I send hours online praying for a solution only to go to bed in tears. I am not sure what to do for her. She seems so distressed at night, I can't help her.