Friday, November 30, 2007
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
it's all relative
I have been saying the above statement for weeks now. Peoples lives and the problems and stresses they have are all relative to their past experiences. One person's drama is anothers comedy. Sometimes I feel I have the worst life possible. No permanent home, issues with Rose and her education, issues with Lily and her sleep disorder, No job and insurance, and all the stresses that go with it. But then I look at the lives of my friends, the ones I envy and I have begun listening. No ones life is perfect everyone has stress and feels alone. I think why would that bother them and then it hits me they maybe saying the same of me so I say "It's all relative." What drives me crazy may just make you laugh. What I can handle might make you crumble but who's to say what your going through right now wouldn't bring me to my knees. So I say good luck and your not alone, none of you. Where all in this together, we may not be having the same issues but they are all important. What you are feeling right now is fine and normal. The stress that has you in tears today may have you in stitches tomorrow. I'm here for you... I may fall asleep, but I'm here. Remember it's all relative to where your standing.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
alone
I am pretty sure the lack of sleep is getting to me. I feel helpless and less and less like a mother. I'm suppose to know what to do. I'm suppose to make things all better. I can't help Lily. I don't understand what is going on with her. I am lost and alone. I send hours online praying for a solution only to go to bed in tears. I am not sure what to do for her. She seems so distressed at night, I can't help her.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
so how are you sleeping?
Well we have now tried in the crib sleeping and in the bed sleeping and in the hummock sleeping and well no one is sleeping. So now what? I am going to try the she must be starving idea and feed her at night and see if we can't log in some more sleep. No I have not let her just cry it out yet. It was suggested that we see a GI specialist to rule out any issues and then a sleep study. For now we are in a holding pattern. I am personally ready to land but we are holding up remarkably well.
Rose and I had a blast and even bought the soundtrack so we sing along in the car! I am keep treking along in hopes that someday my children won't look back and only remember that I was always tired and cranky.
In other news Rose went to her first live theatre performance when I took her to see Pinkalicious
Rose and I had a blast and even bought the soundtrack so we sing along in the car! I am keep treking along in hopes that someday my children won't look back and only remember that I was always tired and cranky.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
The dark side of the gnome
I am begging no pleading with you and any friends you may have for help and advice. Lily does not sleep. I am not talking gets up once or twice a night I am talking 12 to 20 times a night. We are tired, sick and cranky. Here's the low down. Lily sleeps in an Amby bed designed for baby's who do not sleep well and crave motion and who also are preemies and have Gerd. We keep a cool mist humidifier on at all times in her room running on low. We also play a CD of the Ocean on repeat. Lily sleeps with a pacifier that she can not manipulate on her own ( has sensory and fine motor skills issues). She gets up and wants her pacifier and then falls asleep for 15 min and the repeats the above. Sometimes she just wakes up and that's that for an hour or two. So what do we do now? The experts who work with Lily on a weekly basis do not suggest crying it out. Not that I could do that anyhow. So HELP ask everyone you know. We are desperate for sleep.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Cranky Pants
What do you get when you combine a baby with hypersensitivity and colic with a mother who has PMS and an older sister with a 102.4 degree fever and a father with general lack of sleep and a cough?.......... Give up? CRANKY DAY! I am still wearing the clothes I "fell asleep" in last night. I put the "" up because we only sleep for 20 min stretches so why call it sleep when its more like narcoleptic fits. We have all dressed in our finest cranky pants and have paraded around for ourselves. In our parade we have cranky butt who has a rash and is teething and has given sleep up for lent (she is oh so pleasant). Next is the high wire act of big cranky sister. Cranky sister complains a lot about pooping and needing a bath, her temp makes her pleasant to be near, so she insists on sitting on my lap and creating a core temp for me that resembles the center of the earth. Then there is Senior Cranky Pants he has a short temper and can be found rolling on the floor complaining of a general lack of sleep (his act resembles a clown on drugs). That only leaves me Queen Cranky Pants. I'm the Ring Leader and bringer of popicicles and clean pacifiers. I have PMS, two hours of sleep (generously given to me by my husband) and a headache. I bark orders and make dinners and feel cranky so that makes me either the leader or the short order cook. So what will tomorrow bring? Who cares I will be up 10 times tonight and won't even know what day of the week it is!
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Monday, November 05, 2007
Friday, November 02, 2007
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